One of Many

a glimpse of what was possible
now rolling down my cheek
this vague new hope for comfort
is lost so now i see

through hazy eyes of awkward cries
i’m looking at the phone
it’s silence is mocking, but sure isn’t shocking
i’ve always known i’m alone

so i pull out my pen, and start this again
and wonder how soon after it starts it will end
i’ll fill up these pages with my silent rages
and the words that i know that i’ll never send

i’ll post and get comments, cuz that’s what i wanted
attention that you were too busy to ever give me
but i cannot blame you, you gave me a clear view
of a reality that i was just too scared to see